Olya Kosogova
intuitive & artist
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How and when I remembered a past life for the first time

19 April 2019

When I was planning this post for you, I knew exactly which episode of my life I wanted to share with you. My first conscious remembering of past lives happened to me when I was around 20 years old.

Just before it happened I asked my more experienced friend how I could go about uncovering a past life? She answered something like «decide to remember» - meaning that I had to have an intention about this and say to myself, Universe that I am ready and want to remember a past life. I did listen to my friend's advice and for the first time asked my self and Universe to help make my wish come true.

In a day or two after this I was taking a bath in the evening. I remember that I lit up a nice incense and I was relaxing in the tub without thinking about anything specific…

…and suddenly I saw myself as a man in my 30s who was doing something similar, but I was more sitting than laying… Then I heard a dog barking outside and it alarmed me. I jumped out of my «tub», putting on something like a cotton robe which wrapped around my chest and waist. I felt the fabric touching the skin of my flat male chest… Then I ran out the door and stood still fully alert for a moment, scanning the area around my house and neighborhood with my mind, searching for any possible danger. In that moment I remembered that I was living in some valley in China some centuries ago. I had been trained in some military and fighting skills, but I was now in a more peaceful phase of my life. I even have my own small household, the wooden building I just came out… And there was no danger, nothing suspicious was going on, so I could relax and go back to my house. There were beautiful stars are up in the sky and my neighborhood seemed peaceful. There also was a nice scent of an incense in the air… a scent similar to what I had on in my bathroom.… and I was back in my female body in the 21st century and I'm Olya again. And I'm sitting up right freaked out by this sudden full body transfer and back!

This little journey lasted maybe several intense seconds… But it was so physical, real and involved all my senses…And it felt good. Even now, more than 12 years later I still remember the vision very well!

In my bathroom after this soul journey to China I managed to gather my thoughts. I got out of the bathtub eventually, wrapping myself in towels to dry up. And I remember that I was standing next to a sink, when I received a second past life memory. Curiously enough it felt more like an image in my head, like something maybe happened, maybe not or even like maybe I read it somewhere before… I saw myself as a very young woman in some Slavic community centuries ago. I was forced to marry to a widower who had two children of his own. He wanted to have a son to continue the family line, that's why he got me. Our relation didn't go well, he abused me and I didn't stand up to him…. and at some point I ran away out of desperation, leaving behind him and his small kids. In my run I met a group of local healers who lived in wild nature. They cared for me and I started apprenticing with them, learning about about healing and spirituality. Occasionally I would hide next to the village I ran away from and observe the family I left, that husband and his kids, feeling pain and guilt, but knowing that I have had to run away to save myself.

Without going into much detail, I have to say that this second vision created a transformation in me. It was like a piece of the puzzle explaining some of my inner blocks I had in my current life and couldn't understand where they came from. The vision of that life suggested several sources of my present struggles and explained so much. I didn't care if it really was a past life or what, since it was helping me any way.

In that evening in my bathroom I also remember seeing another past life. However no matter how much I tried to remember what it was in order to write this post I planned, I couldn't. As if it never happened, or I forgot completely (hello, old age of 32 years!) or maybe that lifetime is not relevant for my soul anymore…

However trying to solve this puzzle, I started really digging in my memory - and realized that past experiences of my soul has been coming to me much earlier than this experience in my 20s - past lives played out for me in different ways and forms over time!

When I was around 10 yeas old, I remember playing in my room and jumping on the sofa. I very clearly knew with something in my body (not with my head) that flying was possible, not just by plane or available just for birds. I was struggling to recover a hidden skill in me, something do with setting an intention in the body - and flying because of the right intention…I was clear that probably this would not work here in the present time, but I knew with all my being that flying was possible.

When I was around 13 years old, I remember running down for a lunch break at school. I put my hand on the railing of the stairs and started my descend, when out of the blue saw myself in a dress with a crinoline skirt, corset and open shoulders. I was quickly going down a beautiful staircase in a small palace or some noble home maybe in the 18th or 19th century Europe. It felt quite recent. The vision lasted a second, but it made me feel happy and felt important, even inspiring. However, at the time I didn't think about past lives seriously, so I forgot about the vision after couple of days.

About the same age I also got my first period. In two weeks prior to it, as I understand it now, I had several powerful things happening. Almost like my soul orchestrated a special ceremony around me entering into a new stage of my life. I had no flashes of past memories, but it felt like my soul was reenacting some ancient ceremony in a way.

Me and my family we were traveling at the time. In one of souvenir shops I saw a pendant with triple spirals (triskelion) which I liked and asked my parents to buy it for me. Now I know this a very ancient symbol of rebirth, transformation, cycles of life and other mysteries of old religions. While on the trip I had an insisting thought that I need to dip this pendant into the water of both places we had on our itinerary. The Atlantic ocean and the Mediterranean sea. And I did it, I put my pendant in these both bodies of water. It felt important and good. Never mind that at the time I was a teenager who didn't care about old history, much about religions and who was mostly preoccupied with interest towards boys and worries over my body. During this trip we also visited couple of power place (with tourists, but still powerful) or also we witnessed an almost full sun eclipse live. The evening before flying back home I got my first period.

All of this could be regarded as just a coincidence. Or I can allow myself to see it as a ritual my soul was called to do before welcoming my first period in this body. My guess is that in ancient time people might have known how to see when a girl will get a period for the first time. Maybe ancient people celebrated it and did rituals to ensure a smooth transition to the new phases of a girl life. Also after years of self-study I now know that for my soul knowledge about sacred sexuality is very important. So what could be the perfect way for my soul to experience the first period?

When I think about it, my soul says «yes». My soul was remembering old rituals and it felt good for a present version of me to do something similar to support myself in this transition.

I also have one more example of past lives activation to share today - a more casual, but nonetheless a deep one.

When I was about 18 years old, I accepted an invitation to meet up with a girl I got to know online just recently. We studied at same university, talked on the phone once, but never met before. I was very much into photography at the time. I was looking for people to be my models, so I could practice my photography skills with people. That girl offered to be photographed.

When I met her, we spoke for 13 hours straight and I never turned on my camera. We spoke about energy and various things we call «new age spirituality». It was rare in those times in Moscow to meet someone with whom to speak about such things openly! When we parted ways in the end of that day, we even hugged.

We stayed close friends for many years and learnt so much together, including about past lives and ancient mysteries. We uncovered many shared lifetimes and experiences. She is that friend who gave me her advice in the beginning of this post ;-) When we met for the first time, or course, our shared soul histories were very present and important, even though I was not aware about it at the time. I thought I got lucky to meet a cool new friend, while in truth we actually just resumed our long relationship of many centuries (maybe even several thousand earth years).

I shared with you all these experiences, so this may inspire you to look into your own life from this perspective:

- Have you had sudden visions which felt like past lives?
- Have you ever met someone who you already knew «for centuries»?
- Have you ever done something strange which your soul just knew how to do?
- Have you ever known something inside yourself, like from other lifetimes?

I invite you to look into your memories and see if something comes up in response to these questions. I really recommend writing down your answers, in a journal, by sending a message to me or by commenting below the post in Instagram. When we name our insights or memories out loud, we reaffirm that these insights are real and valid. This helps further integrate gifts within these insights. And it inspires other people to wake up and realize something for their own journey.




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How and when I remembered a past life for the first time
19 April 2019

When I was planning this post for you, I knew exactly which episode of my life I wanted to share with you. My first conscious remembering of past lives happened to me when I was around 20 years old.

Just before it happened I asked my more experienced friend how I could go about uncovering a past life?
She answered something like «decide to remember» - meaning that I had to have an intention about this and say to myself, Universe that I am ready and want to remember a past life. I did listen to my friend's advice and for the first time asked my self and Universe to help make my wish come true.

In a day or two after this I was taking a bath in the evening. I remember that I lit up a nice incense and I was relaxing in the tub without thinking about anything specific…

…and suddenly I saw myself as a man in my 30s who was doing something similar, but I was more sitting than laying… Then I heard a dog barking outside and it alarmed me. I jumped out of my «tub», putting on something like a cotton robe which wrapped around my chest and waist. I felt the fabric touching the skin of my flat male chest… Then I ran out the door and stood still fully alert for a moment, scanning the area around my house and neighborhood with my mind, searching for any possible danger. In that moment I remembered that I was living in some valley in China some centuries ago. I had been trained in some military and fighting skills, but I was now in a more peaceful phase of my life. I even have my own small household, the wooden building I just came out… And there was no danger, nothing suspicious was going on, so I could relax and go back to my house. There were beautiful stars are up in the sky and my neighborhood seemed peaceful. There also was a nice scent of an incense in the air… a scent similar to what I had on in my bathroom.… and I was back in my female body in the 21st century and I'm Olya again. And I'm sitting up right freaked out by this sudden full body transfer and back!

This little journey lasted maybe several intense seconds… But it was so physical, real and involved all my senses…And it felt good. Even now, more than 12 years later I still remember the vision very well!

In my bathroom after this soul journey to China I managed to gather my thoughts. I got out of the bathtub eventually, wrapping myself in towels to dry up. And I remember that I was standing next to a sink, when I received a second past life memory. Curiously enough it felt more like an image in my head, like something maybe happened, maybe not or even like maybe I read it somewhere before… I saw myself as a very young woman in some Slavic community centuries ago. I was forced to marry to a widower who had two children of his own. He wanted to have a son to continue the family line, that's why he got me. Our relation didn't go well, he abused me and I didn't stand up to him…. and at some point I ran away out of desperation, leaving behind him and his small kids. In my run I met a group of local healers who lived in wild nature. They cared for me and I started apprenticing with them, learning about about healing and spirituality. Occasionally I would hide next to the village I ran away from and observe the family I left, that husband and his kids, feeling pain and guilt, but knowing that I have had to run away to save myself.

Without going into much detail, I have to say that this second vision created a transformation in me. It was like a piece of the puzzle explaining some of my inner blocks I had in my current life and couldn't understand where they came from. The vision of that life suggested several sources of my present struggles and explained so much. I didn't care if it really was a past life or what, since it was helping me any way.

In that evening in my bathroom I also remember seeing another past life. However no matter how much I tried to remember what it was in order to write this post I planned, I couldn't. As if it never happened, or I forgot completely (hello, old age of 32 years!) or maybe that lifetime is not relevant for my soul anymore…

However trying to solve this puzzle, I started really digging in my memory - and realized that past experiences of my soul has been coming to me much earlier than this experience in my 20s - past lives played out for me in different ways and forms over time!

When I was around 10 yeas old, I remember playing in my room and jumping on the sofa. I very clearly knew with something in my body (not with my head) that flying was possible, not just by plane or available just for birds. I was struggling to recover a hidden skill in me, something do with setting an intention in the body - and flying because of the right intention…I was clear that probably this would not work here in the present time, but I knew with all my being that flying was possible.

When I was around 13 years old, I remember running down for a lunch break at school. I put my hand on the railing of the stairs and started my descend, when out of the blue saw myself in a dress with a crinoline skirt, corset and open shoulders. I was quickly going down a beautiful staircase in a small palace or some noble home maybe in the 18th or 19th century Europe. It felt quite recent. The vision lasted a second, but it made me feel happy and felt important, even inspiring. However, at the time I didn't think about past lives seriously, so I forgot about the vision after couple of days.

About the same age I also got my first period. In two weeks prior to it, as I understand it now, I had several powerful things happening. Almost like my soul orchestrated a special ceremony around me entering into a new stage of my life. I had no flashes of past memories, but it felt like my soul was reenacting some ancient ceremony in a way.

Me and my family we were traveling at the time. In one of souvenir shops I saw a pendant with triple spirals (triskelion) which I liked and asked my parents to buy it for me. Now I know this a very ancient symbol of rebirth, transformation, cycles of life and other mysteries of old religions. While on the trip I had an insisting thought that I need to dip this pendant into the water of both places we had on our itinerary. The Atlantic ocean and the Mediterranean sea. And I did it, I put my pendant in these both bodies of water. It felt important and good. Never mind that at the time I was a teenager who didn't care about old history, much about religions and who was mostly preoccupied with interest towards boys and worries over my body. During this trip we also visited couple of power place (with tourists, but still powerful) or also we witnessed an almost full sun eclipse live. The evening before flying back home I got my first period.

All of this could be regarded as just a coincidence. Or I can allow myself to see it as a ritual my soul was called to do before welcoming my first period in this body. My guess is that in ancient time people might have known how to see when a girl will get a period for the first time. Maybe ancient people celebrated it and did rituals to ensure a smooth transition to the new phases of a girl life. Also after years of self-study I now know that for my soul knowledge about sacred sexuality is very important. So what could be the perfect way for my soul to experience the first period?

When I think about it, my soul says «yes». My soul was remembering old rituals and it felt good for a present version of me to do something similar to support myself in this transition.

I also have one more example of past lives activation to share today - a more casual, but nonetheless a deep one.

When I was about 18 years old, I accepted an invitation to meet up with a girl I got to know online just recently. We studied at same university, talked on the phone once, but never met before. I was very much into photography at the time. I was looking for people to be my models, so I could practice my photography skills with people. That girl offered to be photographed.

When I met her, we spoke for 13 hours straight and I never turned on my camera. We spoke about energy and various things we call «new age spirituality». It was rare in those times in Moscow to meet someone with whom to speak about such things openly! When we parted ways in the end of that day, we even hugged.

We stayed close friends for many years and learnt so much together, including about past lives and ancient mysteries. We uncovered many shared lifetimes and experiences. She is that friend who gave me her advice in the beginning of this post ;-) When we met for the first time, or course, our shared soul histories were very present and important, even though I was not aware about it at the time. I thought I got lucky to meet a cool new friend, while in truth we actually just resumed our long relationship of many centuries (maybe even several thousand earth years).

I shared with you all these experiences, so this may inspire you to look into your own life from this perspective:

- Have you had sudden visions which felt like past lives?
- Have you ever met someone who you already knew «for centuries»?
- Have you ever done something strange which your soul just knew how to do?
- Have you ever known something inside yourself, like from other lifetimes?

I invite you to look into your memories and see if something comes up in response to these questions. I really recommend writing down your answers, in a journal, by sending a message to me or by commenting below the post in Instagram. When we name our insights or memories out loud, we reaffirm that these insights are real and valid. This helps further integrate gifts within these insights. And it inspires other people to wake up and realize something for their own journey.




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